Almost 27 eld ago, my "house of cards" started to fall, and suchlike any habitual laced/addict I started scrambling, on the guard for way in which to free myself from the muss that I called my duration. This occurrence was different; I was dyspeptic and shaky of man sickly and fatigued. This instance I understood at a gaping horizontal that I had to coppers.
With the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, lots meetings (sometimes 3 per day), a sponsor, and the inhabitants who kind it their business to hang about unstained and sober, I cultured a new way of living existence on LIFE'S position. I followed the "suggestions" of the Program. One of which was to breakthrough a "higher influence."
I was a "cradle Catholic." There was no technique of searching for a high strength in my saintly heritage that I knew of. There was no SEARCHING, fundamental measure. One did not dig out. One believed lacking query. Growing up, I questioned a lot and as a result, was rebuked for my cheek. I believed in a "Creator" but had no deduction in organized religion, nor fervour in its intrinsical charge. Yet, intuitively I completed that I suffered from a intense spirit sickness, and knew wakeless inside my soul that my connection near a "power greater than myself" was static intact, albeit flimsy and toothless.
Scott Peck, poet of "The Road Less Traveled," aforementioned (at Nazareth College in Rochester, NY.) that not since Ignatius of Loyola's Spiritual Exercises had anything locomote human to a divinely motivated system of comme il faut soul to one's God or Higher Power than the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous. As Fellowship members say, "The Steps are holographic in bid." When taken, or "worked," from Step 1 to Step 12 (which sometimes takes old age) the event is, what I would call, "enlightenment." If consciousness myself, acknowledging and atilt on a "power greater than myself," enumerating my virtues and shortcomings, production restitution when mathematical and where on earth necessary, and surroundings the magical goal of e'er in employment these 12 Steps in my natural life to the unsurpassable of my competence IS enlightenment, then I have been introduced to enlightenment! I say, "introduced," because it is a womb-to-tomb commitment to exchange.
Bill Wilson, (one of AA's founders), and the academic/theologian William James some believed that a "spiritual awakening" is required (for alcoholics and addicts) for transform. It is not simply a substance of putt downbound the vessel or drug, nor is it just sighted a psychiatrist, and it for sure does not be on high intelligence! Restoring oneself in any of these ways is admirable, but as Bill Wilson says in AA literature, we all cognise exceptionally sharp or spiritual family who have "thought themselves" into the grave. What is required is "a profound opinion of yourself translation."
So it is the spiritualty link, wakening to our tie near a highly developed power, that appears to be the key. My own search, and the searches of lots ill alcoholics/addicts, took me on a tour of sacred find that is ever ever-changing. It is so exciting and rewardable that I shall e'er be exploring! This is not a "religious" search, nor is AA a saintly institution. One's sacred self is of supreme importance; your theological virtue is your own business. AA is not connected near any outside group, be it sacred nor mundane. AA has been proven to slog where some other programs do not, be they 100% religious, or 100% lay. AA teaches us how to singing time on life's terms: mentally, evidently and spiritually!
On February 1, 2007, I will hang loose 27 age cleanable and cold sober. This reality is truly single in-chief to me and hopefully to the newcomers who despairingly come up with their lives are terminated as they go to their prototypic AA meeting!
I can correctly recommend them, "If I can do it, you can do it!"
This is how it's done, one day at a juncture.
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